Ok, i don't know if you guys are having this same experience right now or not....but there is something huge a brewin' on the horizon.  for the last couple weeks, everyone who i have ever been creatively connected with has been coming out of the woodwork and are all veritably drunk on some kind of growing, stirring energy. this kind of thing happens to me every spring (now in februrary....thanks global warming!) but this year it's crazy strong. am i right? are you guys seeing this?? so all these people around me are all just jumping the tracks of the life they have been trudging through these last couple of years and taking a joyful header into the abyss. by abyss i mean, the unknown, but they don't seem to care. they are ditching jobs and writing books instead. digging up old work and giving it a second look. starting new work like zealots practically. and i'm there too....there are suddenly a hundred things i want to start working on and a hundred people i want to work with. (strange considering i'm usually a total lone-wolf creatively). but there is just this crazy urge to do something.....positive...creative...and connected.

So after, like, the third email yesterday from someone from the past contacting me to say they haven't talked to me forever but they're working on this or that..... i get a phone call from my friend Mindy. I have just decided that Mindy is my spiritual adviser, in spite of...or maybe because of...the fact that i don't seem to believe in any of the heebe-jeebe that she is always talking about. she is a cranio sacral therapist and i still don't even understand what that is....and she's always either giving me rocks to put my thoughts into or talking about the world in terms of a vagina....but nonetheless, everything she tells me is happening with me seems to turn out just as she said. so it's fine....Mindy is my Rasputin (minus the evil satan-worshiping orgies) and she called me last night and basically yelled (in a nice way) for an hour about the coming flood this spring. she said that all the astrologist's (again...i am usually the skeptic here) and other spiritual people are talking about this huge wave of positive activity that is going to happen this spring for...and generated from... all the people that have been getting their ass kicked so bad over the last couple of years.
me: "so....i need, like, an ark?"
yes. apparently the ark will be my own awareness of what's happening, so i can get my shit together and ride the super-wave of creative mayhem that is going to turn the tide for good in this world. hot damn!! it is high time for some creative mayhem i say.

so- i guess what i'm getting at is....whatever you think the reason for it is....if you feel it- jump the tracks man. apparently it's time for this. and it makes total sense. we have just been through a few long and heavy years of repression, deceitfulness, war and recession. people have been really sad. seems like as a country we have towed the line for something that we are not comfortable with. and i'm not just talking politically but in all aspects of life. seems like we have not been our selves lately. and this ties in directly with a creative surge how? well, because what is creativity really? at the core, it doesn't really have to do with making a good painting or a beautiful yarn or whatever.

Being creative means bringing what is inside of you, out.

The purpose of being creative isn't about the product at all. focusing on the product only makes people shy away from their creativity because they're worried that what they make won't measure up. which is terrible news for our culture, because being creative is the process of being yourself and presenting your truthful perspective to the world. if everyone got comfortable with being creative, then they would become comfortable presenting their true perspective to others. and get used to facing the honest perspectives of others. we could all be a little more honest. and i think we desperately need that about now.

.........or maybe i'm just ranting. but hell man- it's February and the daffodils are pushing up right outside my door. i guess it's global warming...but i'm going to remain open to the idea that it possibly could be a world wide creative ass kicking.


my Ark: just finally got everything from the old studio (that we were kicked out of for being broke dead-beats) all set up in my downstairs studio. it's better though, we just installed a bottle-opener on the ceiling as you walk in, so well.... it's also kind of a spinning lounge.